I don't give a flying flip what other people think is best for Charlie. And I don't give a flying flip if you think I could be doing a better job managing my life.
I do things a little bit differently with Charlie and I realize this makes some people uncomfortable. Some choices I make, like choosing not to vaccinate, or choosing to not medicate for certain things, may be seen as dangerous or irresponsible by some.
I assure all of you that I research everything to the nth degree. I do not take a single parenting or medical choice lightly. If you've been there/done that and have any suggestions or things you think I may not have all the info on, by all means, send me a link or recommend a book. Otherwise, realize that you have no clue what it's like to care for a child like Charlie. It's not all cut and dry.
Secondly, I realize my house is a wreck. I know eating so much fast food isn't good for us. I know sometimes I slack off on things that need to be done. I am very much aware that Adrian is acting out more. I DON'T CARE. Adrian will outgrow this phase and believe me, if I knew what discipline worked for him, I'd be doing it. He's still a great kid and his meltdowns lately are not hurting anyone, so unless you have the magic cure for the terrible three's, don't bother with the "if only you'd do this..." Trust me, we are doing the best we can. We WILL get unpacked. We WILL eventually get our life in order so I can keep up on the housework and actually manage to cook a decent meal every couple of days. It's just going to take longer than normal.
I know everyone sees that we have a nurse 56 hours a week and can't understand why I don't get more done. My priorities are eat, sleep, take care of the kids. Nothing else at the moment. I get up usually after about 5-6 hours of sleep. I am hooked up to pump 30 minutes every third hour (if you are counting, that's appox 3 1/2 hours a day total). We have appointments usually 4 days a week and it is no small feat to get Charlie out of the house, even with a nurse to help. I choose to watch TV, play on the computer, or catch a quick nap instead of doing that extra load of laundry and I don't feel guilty about it.
I'm losing it people. I running on very little sleep and I'm running out of patience. Unless you know what it's like to be in my situation, shut your trap.
Yes, I'm feeling bitchy, and no, I don't feel guilty about that either.